This is what you asked for…

Yes, that lyric 👆is a baller one, and will remain forever as a life changer for me.

Anyway, where am I at since my last confession for sucking wood? Shall we list everything that’s new?

• I’ve began trading beer for wine. Yep I’m one of those ponces now.

• Billy now has the most liked and viewed post on my Instagram.

• I’ve had my love for cooking reignited.

• I eat daily (believe it or not, that’s a fucking achievement).

• Skyler and I have a morning routine that involves sitting outside for 10 minutes everyday, then sitting by the coffee table while listening to 5 min motivation videos on YouTube, followed by a small workout.

• We also have a night routine of a harder workout while watching brain rot… which is fair!

• My MacBook bleeped its final bleep, meaning I can’t edit YouTube videos until I get a new one.

• I’ve started gardening (or learning to. Fuck off, it’s new to me!)

• I finished kitting the interior of the flat out completely.

• I’ve started going for walks when I get time on my days off.

• I’m happy.

All of this happened after raising a glass to myself on bank holiday Monday, 25th August. Saying goodbye to the hardest and most testing 365 day period of my life. As I sat in the communal garden, looking over the river… I was expecting to feel pity for myself. I didn’t feel that. I felt amazed by myself, and thanked the guy I was a year ago for staying strong enough to help me get to where I am. Sure, I’ve had help, and I’ve been lucky with how a few things have aligned, but it has to start with me.

Without me, this year would’ve been the last.

So, no to pity, and no to pride too.

Just grateful.

A year ago, August ended in tears, shame, destruction, lies, gaslighting, blood, and betrayal.

This August ended with smiles, goals, and the start of triceps… watch this space 😂

I’ll leave you with this: ‘Wounds heal and become silent. Scars, they will always whisper,’

Whoever you are. Wherever you are.

Thank you for reading.

Daniel ❤️