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Did you know diarrhoea runs in your genes? Anyway, dad joke done… moving on…

I’m watching m3gan, which is a clown of movie!

So, one of my biggest social media highlights this year was a video I did, creating the Cured Salmon Taco starter at work… and fuck, I look miserable during it. All the videos where I’m talking, I look miserable 😂. Yes, I find it funny, because I was actually happy when recording them.

Mental wellness podcaster, Chris Williamson, has gone into great lengths talking about what he calls ‘the lonely chapter’. This’ll be a time in your life when significant change and self reflection is required. You won’t quite fit in with your old friends, and you don’t know where you fit into now. This is where I’m at in life.

Just to clarify; I’m not lonely.

I’m just alone, and that’s better than the alternative of wasting time and effort on things that don’t benefit me. Although, having to be your own biggest cheerleader when your self worth and respect has been shot to shit, is a mountain of a task!

Now, all of this could make me sound like I’m depressed, and in truth, I probably still am to a certain degree. But that’s only a good thing, considering I’ve still managed to what I’ve done this year while not at 100%. Once those final shards of grief fuck off out my life, it’s game on.

I won’t be forcing it, it’ll come with time. I feel like this vacation has been the last little chapter for me to bleed it all out of my system… by doing fuck all. I mean, literal fuck all. I’ve ordered takeaways every night, watched crap, and barely left the flat. I’ve actually rested for once.

I think this week of solitude has cemented the start of this ‘lonely chapter’.

Anyway, back to work tomorrow for five days, then off for another week, though that week will be more productive and foundational to the next part of this journey.

Whoever you are.

Wherever you are.

Thank you for reading.

Daniel.